Thank you for sharing this, personal reflection is always a challenge, as is putting yourself out there.
I’m an old man (OK, not old in the grand scheme, but, old enough to compete in over 40 at worlds), you hit the nail on the head realizing TIME is more precious than gold (or titanium or bi metal). Find a passion and live it. Life is too short to spend your work week hating what you do. Good luck to you and remember that on life’s journey, there will be parts of the path you hate, but, you still need to stay on the path to reach the goal. That said, you should try to enjoy the journey as much as you can.